When life has lost all meaning I keep on living,
but not because of my wish to continue wallowing in nothingness,
but for my one true love,
my soul mate.
Without him I am not sure where i would be right now,
most likely six feet under.
When I think upon my life,
I see that I have never been as happy.
When I met him my whole look on the world changed,
and now I see that true love really is possibe.
Crazy Crazy Love.....
Love, it is so hard to think that I have actually found it,
but in my heart I know it is true.
-sighs- My soul mate...
I have found my other half....Read more >
I am changing,
and that is all I really know.
I do not know wether the change is for the better or worse,
and I do not know what caused it.
I am worried that if I change I will no longer be who I was.
The person I used to be wasn't so great,
but she at least knew how to follow orders.
Will this change effect my life,
and will I even fully change.
If you are confused by this,
then imagine how I feel...
I don't even recognize myself anymore...
I look in the mirror and I am spilt in half...
The Angel, and The Demon...
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I... I can't take it anymore, who is to say that it is going to change,
Who is to say this is going to ever get better?
Who!?! Because it won't!!!!
Day in and day out I am surrounded by pain and sorrow,
I am so tired of trying to stay happy,
One person... and one person only can make me smile anymore...
But even he doesn't understand,
Then again I wouldn't be able to tell him how I feel without upseting him.
Am i supposed to live like this forever?
Because if so then I refuse to live to see tomorrow.
Why can't anyone see what I do...
I am at a loss for words,
Because even if I speak,
No one will hear.Read more >
I'm hidden, no one can see me, and that's just the way I like it.
The more I hide, the more I realize how I am different than people nowdays.
I blame this on being locked up all the time, though if I wasn't would I still be an outcast?
Not that I mind being outcasted honestly most normal people in society are jerks.
I am almost afraid to leave the house (my safe haven) and venture in to the world.
Not that I'd be on my own, my master would never let that happen, I still don't think he fully trusts me.
I hide within the shadows, watching and yet never approaching.
For if I approached who would they see, my innocent face, or the face of a killer.
I do not wish to be like everybody else, I just wish I was accepted.
Even though that may not happen, I u…Read more >
As I grew up I learned that love only brought a person pain.
Then I began thinking, if love brings you pain is it worth it for the moments that you are happy?
I love someone, and I believe he loves me, but what if it is all a lie?
Could that be all love really is, a lie?
This is the first time I've actually experienced love, and it's wonderful.
But will it come back to haunt me?
Will it bring me only pain and sorrow in the end?
I have always only had one fear, the fear of never being good enough.
Would this fear get in the way of love?
Who is to say he even truely loves me?
I'm just a proxy after all...
I love him, and if he truely loves me then I'll be content.Read more >