I...don't how it happend..or rather why it happened..but for some reason I seemed to have a lost a memory. And juding by what my comrades are stating it seemed to be a very important memory. There is not much I can remember but there is something I can feel. I felt pain...great, excrutiating ad angonising pain in my head...as if someone was pouring acid in my brain. Then that's when...SHE...became involved...her name was MiStReSs CoNfUsIoN or Confusion or MC for short. When I saw her...I did not know her...she desperatly pleaded to me to try to remember her...but to no avail...it would seem that my memory of her was completly wiped away.
After many tries...she gave up...and left, my friend Dawn offered to help me get my memory back....but...that's when my brother Rogue Shadow showed me something...that shocked me to my very core and heart. It was a letter...a letter to HER...it was saying that I need to no longer be with her because I feel like I kept putting her in danger....and...I was traumatised and appaled....Rogue claims that I was the one who wiped my memory of her away....how dare he claim something like that....I would never do such a horrid and terrible act...I would never do such an unforgivable act of betrayel. When I learned of this...I was so scared...and paranoied...I began to have trust issues.
My brother and friends tried to calm me down, but I went too far when I drew my swords out, Dawn and Rogue were about to attack me...but they refused....there was also Composer..he states that he had an 'appointment' with HER...whatever that means...speaking of whom...she told me that my...legacy...can't live without me.....I'm still having great difficulty remembering...her...but I do remember..that...she was the most important and greatest person to me...
....I...I was right....I am a cold, heartless being..I'm nothing but an empty shell of my former self...this...it's too much for me...damn it all. I don't know what to do...I'm not sure if anyone can help me...why would they? I'm just a monster....no loves a monster....no one cares for it. Everytime I see Rogue with his love....I feel a scar buring deep in my heart...while I'm happy that he found the love of his life....I'm also....huh...guess a fallen angel cannot find love. I may have friends...I may have a family...I have their love...but I don't have...my own love of my life.
Right now I'm not on Earth, Heaven, Hell, or the astral plane....I'm in a dimension..a pocket dimension of infinite and total Darkness...where the tortured and the damned go...endless and eternal punishment and pain....I deserve it...I now realise...I cannot save everyone....even if I have all this power....I cannot save everyone. My friends if you find this...please read it....it was and honor fighting by your side...and thank you all...you gave me something that I thought I could never have....friends and family...
And tell...her...that....whatever I have done...I am...incredibly...and utterly...sorry. I'm not only asking you to forgive me..I just want you to understand....and do not bother trying to save...no one can get inside the dimension...or out...it looks like this is it for me....I feel as though I brought this to myself...and therefore..I deserve to be punished. This is my last goodbye....please...stay safe....